homecoming

it was still dark outside.
i like the darkness ,it seems familiafr; like a vague embodiment of the trepidations in my mind,and the unstructured chaos that comes with it.
light seems surreal,almost uninviting, like a mirror that shows you your shortcomings,disturbing ;a gremlin of sorts..
life fills you with hope,only to be replaced by dismay.
the cycle goes on...

human...

the quaint feeling of joy was liberating..
the world seemed bereft of pain,of vanity.perfect to the point of being imperfect...
too beautiful to look at...
and then it was over.
joy left like like a brisk visitor , only to be replaced by a vague and sombre companion.
it felt good to be human again......

hope

"hope is the deadliest of weapons,because it cuts both ways."
the mortal wounds inflicted last night continue to bleed.
the cuts are far too deep,refusing to heal any time soon.
all boiled down to last night.the stakes could not have been higher,the performance not more fortitudinous.yet when the curtains came down there was only one king,and only one pawn.
the sun retreated hastily, a spot ashamed by what it had borne witness to.
night ascended and all was black again,flogging the anomalies that so make us human.
yet we chose to be more....

hazy and dull

the exuberance of youth has slowly been replaced by the monotony of adulthood.
nothing like what it promised to be.i have waited for this,now it horrifies me to no end.
where has the it gone..??the one i cherished.i miss what i left behind.the traces i burnt.
the sanctum of my life has been ripped of its deity.
my silence is mine and mine alone. it haunts me.
the pain refuses to subside....